She never slows down.
She doesn't know why but she knows that when she's all alone, feels like its all coming down
She won't turn around
The shadows are long and she fears if she cries that first tear, the tears will not stop raining down

So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day, whats lost can be found
You stand in the rain

She won't make a sound
Alone in this fight with herself and the fears whispering if she stands she'll fall down
She wants to be found
The only way out is through everything she's running from wants to give up and lie down.


So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day, whats lost can be found
You stand in the rain

So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
Stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day, whats lost can be found

So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day, whats lost can be found
You stand in the rain

all your yearnings are not in vain
they are bringing you strength
to fully know that there is joy
to celebrate the reward with love
that slowly
from a far horizon
draws near
breath by breath it comes

the nightmare has almost run its course
years of pain are slowly dissipating
your reward is almost upon you
and I with it

be content for now
knowing it is true
and your dreams
will be fulfilled
a warm hug to change
your tears of anguish
to tears of happiness

When I'm alone
The faces they come and they go
I wonder if they think I've changed
I wish I could stay
But be where you are
The countries and cities so far
This is my dream and my gift
But sometimes I get

Scared
That somehow I'll cease to belong
Anywhere
So I need you when it all starts to show
When I'm alone

When I'm alone
I sleep late it's crazy I know
The worlds only passing me by
I guess that is why
I'm telling you now
That I haven't figured it out
The depth of the things that I've missed
They leave me like this

Scared
That somehow I'll cease to belong
Anywhere
So I need you when it all starts to show
When I'm alone

Is it true that you can find me anytime
Cause I'm feeling like I'm there, it's about that time

Cause I'm scared
That somehow I'll cease to belong
Anywhere
So I need you when it all starts to show
When I'm alone

Company

Ever had company you did not invite? Sometimes people want in. They want in your circle, they want in your home, they want in your life. They have reasons of their own. Usually selfish reasons.

Most times it is not because they want to be your friend. In this case, it is obvious that's what is going on. Those who are inviting themselves in, simply want to know what they don't know - curiosity seems to be driving them. I wonder why.

I agreed to let them in, all the while knowing it is opening a door I would prefer to not open but having that knowledge, gives me an up on the whole thing.

Why are people so curious

It is another hurtful situation

I wish when people have questions they would just ask instead of playing the game.

...and so, I will deal with every aspect of it

...and so, life goes on

...and so, this too shall pass

the sun stopped shining
it rains all the time
it keeps setting me back

I'm making it through
I didn't think I could
but I know that I will

I was cold and hungry
that was for awhile
most of my dreams
have yet to come true

People Pleaser

I am a people pleaser. I know - pleaser is not a word but it best describes how I feel. I learned from youth that if I don't please those around me, survival becomes unbearable.

Even if I have to fake it in order for those around me to be happy, content and comfortable, their needs met, then so be it.

I'll survive another day.

Recently I spent a few days with a friend. I watched and listened. There was not a lot of contentment in her life. I saw and heard...me, my life. From what I was hearing, she spends most of her day and nights doing for others.

A change in their life happened recently that brought them great joy. Their dad had not given them the approval they were waiting for and felt that they needed. But inside she knew the changes made were positive and in the right direction. Still, she had a need for his approval. It weighed heavy on her mind. Almost to the point of reconsidering making a change back to how things were.

Negative thoughts and non approval from dad and hearing negative from those she considered friends left her struggling.

What is the answer for her. I didn't know how to respond but did know something was stirring inside of me.

After hours of hearing myself being described I could do nothing more at that point but ponder.

I wake each morning and ask the Lord what He would have me do with this day before me for His glory. I know it in my heart and seal it there. I enter my day, determined to fulfill those very plans.

Then life happens. People pull on me this way and that. I bend to and fro. I place their pleasures and needs before my own, before the plans I am to be doing for the Lord which puts a great deal of stress on me and oftentimes keeps me from the blessing I could have been, a blessing this day could have been.

What is wrong with her....I mean us?

I learned a great deal from listening to her. That is why I like to be a listener more than a talker.

I/we have a new determination. We are going to support one another. Both of us are going to continue to ask the Lord for direction and at the same time, allow others the freedom to grow in their own walk by not being so dependent upon us.

....and oh ya, we are going to step on and crush the egg shells we have been walking on...giggle